Why Am I Here?

More to the point, why am I doing this?  I mean, why am I choosing to share my life and thoughts in a blog?

A friend of mine asked me that very question the other day in a personal message on Facebook.  They pointed out to me that with me trying to get a teaching job or adopt a child "you're taking a big risk by putting all this stuff out there for the world to see."

True.

But, I'd point out that I've been trying to be a good boy and not say what I mean and try to toe the line, and where has that gotten me?  Abso-fucking-lutly nowhere.

Hell, I KNOW I should be watching my p's and q's and not putting "controversial" shit out there, but, you know what?  It occurred to me recently that life's far too short to just sit around and wait for opportunity to knock on your door.  What I needed to do was bang on that s.o.b's door and bust the fucker in.

Therefore, I started a blog.

Besides, it's not like I made some porno that teenage kids can look up online and use against me at some point.  Yeah, like I'm gonna do THAT.  First off, NOBODY, not even my wife, wants to see this body on film, I can guarantee you that.  Second off, and frankly this is the more important one, I don't think it's sexy or adventurous to record yourself having sex with somebody.  Unless you're a paid "professional" doing it for money, it's a really bad idea.  Even then, it's not the smartest, but who am I to argue with the "beautiful people" who do it?

So, what about the potential harm to an adoption?  Well, we've had our foster license for three years and have gotten basically squat on calls, and, as I pointed out once before, our adoption chances have been pretty fucking slim.  So, really, what's to be harmed at this point?  Yeah, I'm dropping my opinions on here in all their glory, profanity included.  If that offends someone to the point that they don't want me to adopt their kid, that's their short-sighted problem, not mine.  If I can be a bit arrogant for a moment, and I'm gonna be whether or not you want me to, I think I'd make a pretty damn good parent, thank you very much.  This is just a very small part of who I am, and those who judge me based solely on this can kiss my size 60 pants wearing ass.

Someone else asked me if I was concerned about my current employer finding out.  Don't really care.  So long as I don't rip the company (which I won't) or say really shitty things about people with mental illness (which I won't), they don't have a leg to stand on to bitch about it, and if they try, that's where I let my bulldog of a lawyer loose on them and make some bank on my First Amendment rights.  'Nuff said.

So, for those who were hoping this "blog thing" was just a "fad", and that reason and sanity would return to me and I'd sign off......

....not gonna fucking happen.  Thanks for playing, anyway.